Some words I wrote in 2006 whilst trying to come to terms with the condition

A JOURNEY WITH MY NEW D FRIEND

Got to have another hit,

Just to get through

Along life’s  journey

I need get through

Anxiety plunges to a new depth

Skin creeps from my bones

So empty yet so full,

My life’s just started turning,

Oh dear lord how I’ve wept

Around the corner be there salvation

Balance for body and soul,

But I fear getting older

With the syringe as my salvation

Still, some say it could be worse,

You’re just having some troubles son!

Oh how I wish they could know

It’s this way or the hearse

I look to the future,

It’s no dead end

At peace with ones’ self.

To the future my friend!

Adrian Hawkins

21^st August 2006

HYPOGLYCEMIA

Is that the first flush or is it the heat?

Between pillar and post my conscience races

Do I hear the alarm or am I mistaken?

Temperature then rising with the explosion

The Panic sets in, I now feel the alarm

The march to victory the small ants begin

Through orifice and pore their feet march on

Engulfing my body, the cravings begun

Eyes open wide, fear no where to hide

Oh, those beautiful sugars passing my lips

Gravity increases, limbs feel like lead

Neurons lay idle, paralysed in the head

Sinews unable to complete their task

My true feelings a smile cannot mask

My temple no ant hill, for that has now passed

The day still runs on, but for me it’s all gone

To slumber and lethargy, with little parlay

Please God reinstall my motivation today

The all clear now sounded, but I’m not the best

Get back to work, but I need some rest

I retreat to my loved one, the day now complete

In solving sugars mystery, I will not be beat

Adrian Hawkins

August 2006